30 posts tagged “school”
I think that last blog of mine was last year. I'm way much better now I must say. Still a little miserable but okay. We all get a liitle bit miserable once in a while right?
I graduated last month.. CONGRATULATIONS to me! =) It's such an achievement, especially after 5 long years. Its finally paid off actually...
I have work now. I've been working for the past 3 months. And unlike some "working" people I know, I enjoy what I do. I'm the events officer for ETC. I've been handling the channel's events and monthly movie premieres. So when it comes to my career.. it does seem like I'm on the right path. The road has to split somewhere.. but at the moment, it's not something I'm looking forward to.
What else have happened to me... hmmm... I'm in a relationship right now. Quite complicated but working on it. We've been together for a couple of months and the past months have been really good. Its not called the "honeymoon stage" for nothing. But yeah, it comes to the point when the relationship gets a little rough 'round the edges. Its not exactly perfect, but I'm hanging on.
I miss blogging. Just ranting on stuff happening in my life.. I'll do my very best to make this work again. It just that my job's taking up most of my time. BUT.. I'm not complaining. *wink*
So there, just a little update. =)
Its holy week and its perfect time to reflect and of course doze off a bit.. which I'm going to do right about now...
Today, I went on a road trip with a few friends.. It was a spontaneous thing on the first day of our summer classes. I was with jay, elaine and peter. :) We went all the way to Tagaytay.. about 60km away from school. I needed that break from all the stress. Plus it was cooler there. I haven't felt the wind for a few months now. Since tagaytay is on a higher ground.. we could feel the cool breeze. We ate at Viewsite resto.. our bill reached almost P 1,400! (Food: Sinigang na tilapia sa Sampaloc, Pork Sisig, Inihaw na Liempo, Green Mango Ensalada, Grilled Eggplant Ensalada, and about 8 cups of rice! note: there were only four of us. LOL.) We were definitely full... and I slept all throughout the trip home. I slept soundly despite jay's loud house music in his car. :P A few hours in a different environment made me unwind. This was a real good day. ♥
Our professor dismissed us an hour early so we had the time to leave the city and be back before dark. It was a simple thing but it felt like an adventure for me...
I really enjoyed today. God is good.
(I'll post pictures when I find a means to do so.)
I've had better days, but compared to the previous week.. I'm now in a better state.
Summer classes start tomorrow. I should be enjoying my summer vacation but I just thought I could be a little more productive. I need to take at least 3 units to lessen my load for next term. So, I have to sit through 2 hours of discussions on Contemporary National Development (CONADEV) from mondays to saturdays for the entire summer break. Typing the name of the subject bored me already. I'm definitely not into those sort of things. Besides, if I was, I wouldn't be here blogging.. I'd have much much better socio-civic stuff to do. So tonight marks the end of my summer.. *sigh* actually, I don't even remember it starting...
I know I've been in a rut lately.. but on the bright side of things.. (there's a always a bright side, right?) I've been out shopping for clothes to wear during the summer.. a couple of shorts and a few tops. Nothing big.. just got those stuff from bazaars aka tiangge. Since the heat in this country is so intolerable, I'm trying to adjust somehow. I don't usually show a lot of skin.. but this time, its not even a choice anymore.. there's a need to. Suddenly wearing shorts and skirts is the new fad. I'm giving this heat another month. If it goes on like this, I'd probably cut my hair really short.
I have to go to sleep now. School is waiting for me. Farewell summer.
And so I failed. Not that I'm proud of it.. but it's the freakin' reality. Thanks to those who sent me good vibes and wished me luck. I really appreciate it. Anyway, I needed THREE POINTS to pass. My professor didn't want to give me any chance. Sheesh.
I'm going back to school tomorrow to ask beg for reconsideration.
Lord, please give him the heart.. I'm human, I make mistakes..
I hate business law. Actually, I hate the law.
Err.. I hate grades.
Well, things have been seemingly dramatic these past few days. There has been a lot of mixed emotions coming from different people and it has been affecting me. So far, I've settled things.. well, a conversation can do a lot. I was able to talk to my best friend last night.. whom I haven't talked to for the longest time. We did a little catching up, and a lot of serious talk. I missed those times. We've had our fair share of problems and issues for the past couple of months. Some we've survived, some unresolved. I was also able to talk to someone I've recently hurt, not intentionally. Things are (I think) settled and now we're good. I think I'm at peace.. no, I'm getting there..
So today is one of those "okay" days. I'm just anxious about tomorrow. They'll be releasing our grades. My law class is in danger.. grave danger. More like, I am in grave danger if I flunk.
I'm down on my knees begging that I pass. Please.
Ok, so I miss writing some random stuff here in my blog. This almost always happens. I register for a blog, go loco over it for a couple of months, then go hiatus. It's a cycle. Haha. I just proved that it is, 'cause its the nth time this has happened.
Here I am now trying to redeem myself. Give me a break.
My finals week just ended and it literally was hell for me. I broke down after one utterly brain draining exam on business law. I couldn't keep myself composed, my professor bothered me since day one. He's the most arrogant, self-obsessed, know-it-all, heartless freak I've ever met. Not to mention, I have no interest in law.. not a tiny bit. Combine both, and it's like suicide. As soon as I finished shading that last circle on the scannable answer sheet, I rushed out of the room... I found myself walking on my way to the school chapel. The moment I knelt down, I cried my heart out. I felt so tired. I've been in school for four years now.. I just felt so tired. Failing this class is the last thing I need. And my professor is just the exact opposite of the-icing-on-top-of-the-cake thing. There is STILL a miniscule part of me that is HOPING that I pass. By some miracle or what, it could happen.
Anyway I mentioned in my last post that someone has confessed that he liked me. For the past few weeks, he has said the nicest things to me. We've talked a lot on the phone since my line has that unlimited call service. So I can stay as long as I like on my cellphone. He'd buy me cotton candy, sometimes he'd get me ice cream. I know I should melt over chocolates and flowers (should I? haha), but apparently, those small gestures were enough. I guess it doesn't take much to flatter me. Like I said, he'd say the nicest things. I must admit, I've heard most of his words before (from past relationships). But his was just at its sincerest. I know without a doubt that he means what he says. Once I said to him after he gave me a surprise "Thank you, but this is too much. I really appreciate it though. Thank you." He didn't immediately respond, but he sent me a text message after a few minutes.. "...its never too much when it comes to making you happy cause for the first time in my life I found a person who appreciates even the smallest gestures I make... a person who could make me smile without really trying... someone who gives me hope when I feel like giving up... no.. its never too much.. cause whatever I do I know I'm making someone happy... someone worth making happy.. someone like youÜ" it was really sweet. The good thing is, I do believe him. The other side to it is that...it's not enough. Not anymore. I used to fall as soon as the guy knew how to hit me in the heart.. but this time, I've put up a wall. He's such a good person, and I know he has his best intentions for me. He admitted that this is his first time. Its flattering at the same time it scares me, I dont want to be the person who breaks his heart. That sucks. I don't know. Things just happened way too fast. I think my reflex was to put him on the friend zone. Tsk.
My brother's wedding is coming up in a month or two. I've been doing arrangements for his venue. We found a really nice Church.. it has its historic-spanish-look. Its a Church in Guadalupe and it sort of looks like a mini cathedral. We've been looking for wedding bands too. He just bought the rings early today. By the way, while we were in the jewelry store, my mom was pointing out a pendant to me. She knows I've been looking for a simple cross pendant. Just to keep a reminder of my faith near my heart. And there it was. Next thing I know, my mom got me this diamond studded cross. It was way too expensive but she got it for me as an early graduation gift. =) I'm so happy!! I'm still not over it. I've never seen anything so beautiful. :) I even want to have it blessed. I'd also want to wear it every single day. =) Weee! I'm one happy slob. :) Sadly, I dont have the means to upload pictures.. but I've taken pics of the Church and even my new necklace. :) I want to share how pretty they are. SIgh.
It's already late.. I still have to go to school tomorrow for a meeting. I have to enroll for summer classes too. I'll see if I can update this as often. Btw, I have plans of applying for a summer job. Still working on my resume though. :)
I missed this.
To be continued...
- My brother just told us (my family) last Sunday that he's marrying his girl. She's actually pregnant, but contrary to what most people would think, he's not forced into marrying her because of the child. They've been together for more than 6 years I think. Its just about time. However, one of my parents' concerns is that they'd live here in our house after marriage. That would entail a full-blown change in our lifestyle. We'll have a kid running around.. more people.. I dont know. Our home's pretty much quiet in most days. The home theater's the only thing that makes most of the sounds. We just don't know what to expect.
- I'm finally done with my ad campaign. For my Broadcast Advertising class, we were tasked to make tv and radio ads for a particular school. I've spent three days finishing the storyboard on Adobe Photoshop. I havent had sleep. If you just look below my eyes, you can tell how many days I haven't slept like rings on the tree's trunk to tell how old the tree is. Haha. Tomorrow's the big day - the presentation. I hope it turns out okay. *cross fingers*
- Earlier today, a friend just confessed to me that he liked me.It surely caught me off guard. But that's as far as I can tell for now.
For a few weeks now, I haven't had much to say here. School has been keeping me. I get home tired and almost ready to doze off. But right now, I just feel like I have to... I missed my blog. :(
We pulled off the Mixxology party last weekend. A lot of people came that I actually saw the bouncers do their jobs. They blocked people at the entrance. I didnt want to see them use their toned muscles or what they call their "guns" on my batchmates so we had to settle things immediately. It was fun but stressful.. things had to be done and a lot of people to please. But yes, we pulled it off. :) Its over, finally.
Since this weekend, I've been happy for the wrong reasons. Or maybe I just think it's wrong. There are a lot of things I miss. I missed *****. And keeping it away is one of the hardest things to do (but I know I have to).. just having it back makes me feel all giddy.. regardless if that's how I'm supposed to feel. I find myself smiling at random moments. Strange. I like it when I smile though.. these are some of the few times I actually smile, not just for the sake of putting up a happy front. *sigh* But some people have better judgement when it comes to these matters.. and it seems they don't like it's effect on me. Tsk.
Speaking of other people's judgement.. lately, I've been close with a new found friend. He's a good conversationalist. In fact, I've never ever met any guy as insightful as him. I may not be of agreement to everything he says.. but I learn a lot from his opinions and philosphies. It's not everyday that you get to hear the soft spot of men. I've found myself a new "buddy". Believe me, this is purely platonic. The thing however is that when he get's too insightful, it scares me. He seems to have a keen sense of reading people. Somehow I feel like he knows me all too well though he barely knows me. He has just heard a few of my issues and my stories.. much much less than the stuff I've written here in my blog. I didn't know anyone could possibly be capable of that. No one wants to be read. Now Im starting to think that maybe I just let myself out there.. a little too available for people to read, I guess. But thats not how its supposed to be! Is it me? Or does he have some sort of "gift"? WYSIWYG is not my thing. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy talking to him. I'm just a bit worried on how I come across to people.
I need some reformatting or something. Oh God help me.
I've been loaded with school work for the past few days. I even forgot to greet my brother when I saw him the morning of his birthday. I was finishing a transcript the night before, and I slept almost 5am already. I didn't have enough sleep that time.. and apparently, until now.
I've been dealing with school work for about 4 years now, and its cumbersome. Why in the world did I take a 5-year course?
Thing is, at the end of the day, I feel tired, but at the same time I feel like there's so much more I could've done. I haven't been that productive and yet I feel like I've exhausted all my energy. Weird.
I know there's just more to life that this.
Ugh. On a thinking mode at 4 in the morning.
Eversince this year started, I've been dreading Valentines Day. The absence of anyone special to share it with while others take joy in spending the night with dates, gifts, and sweets has been the thought that has lingered in my head all this time. I entered the school campus and with every few steps I took I'd bump onto someone with a bouquet of flowers. Every so often, I'd see guys trying to find the girls they'd give their flowers to, and girls stamped with cheesy smiles while they hold on to roses and tulips. And once in a while, I'd also see girls rolling their eyes as they see those mushy people... and I soon find myself being one of them.
Bitter as it may seem, its not for me to celebrate. My friends would say today is actually Singles Awareness Day. But for me, it had been each passing day since God knows when. I have nothing to be aware of. I am pretty much reminded of my "singleness" as often as men think about sex. Haha, I just don't need this day. I know I will.. just not today.
I know I sound all pessimistic, but surprisingly, my day went well except for the parts where I was amidst all the cheesiness, and when I took a quiz in my law class. Nonetheless, I did good stuff today. And there were friends who gave me some lovin'. So today is like any ordinary day with a little love and surprises.
Looking on the bright side:
- I did a huge favor for a friend today. He badly needed his external hard drive which he left at home, it was for his project due today, so I drove up to his place to pick it up and bring it to school. He was truly grateful and it made me feel really good despite ofcourse the pressures of the day. He even texted me saying that it has been a happy day for him.. and added "thanks to you" :)
- When I got to school, the first person I saw was the guy I've
been ranting about for the past few months. The irony of having him
there on this very day. Sheesh. But, he gave me an unexpected hug...
and a few more. We haven't had any physical contact since December. So
I was surprised but happy. I used to go all dramatic and confused when
things went that way, but today was way more than okay. I've got rid of
the bitterness, but of course little crumbs got left behind. Hah. Well,
it didnt bother me anymore. I didnt care if he was going to spend the
night with another girl, I seriously thought I would. Moved on, I
guess. :) Yay for me!
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Ina, a good friend of mine, got me and elaine cupcakes for Valentines! :) It was a sweet gesture. We just became closer these past few months and she's been very thoughtful since. She's the type of friend you ought to keep til you grow old. :) Love ya ins!
- When I got home, my dad got me a gift! Weeee! :) He got me 2 tops
from Folded and Hung, a local brand. I love the shirts! He got me a
black collared shirt with pink and green stripes and a V-neck pink
shirt. :) Its the first time he actually gave me a gift for the hearts
day. There is indeed a first time for everything. :P Needless to say, I
love my dad.♥
- Can I just add, that yesterday, I learned how to breakdance a bit. haha! ..the "uprock" and "babyfreeze" moves. It's pretty cool.. :) Some dancers came to our school to give lessons on basic breakdancing.. I watched them and I have to admit, it got me practicing afterwards.. :P
Though having no special person today is such a bummer, I'm proud to say I got out of it alive. I'm a survivor. No breakdowns, no tears, no nothing. Just me, friends, family and of course God. ♥ For now, they just keep me alive. I still wish that someone would come along.. hopefully, next year would be different...
But for tonight.. sad to say, I have to prepare my presentation for tomorrow. While others are out on their respective dates, I am here doing school work.
Loser.
But loved. ♥
